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I really am switching galleries now!  

I can live without a subscription for a while.   sooo, if you're wondering where all my work is off to, its being deleted and re-uploaded.

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Saw good music last night at this tsunami relief concert that was being put on locally.  I was up too late though.  And I'm off to be up late again tonight.  Plus there's too much work needing to be done.  And parents are being annoying, but it really is my fault, like most else is.

*Sigh*  I often wish things weren't working out the way they are. Yet when I think about stuff, there's a lot that has gone well too, so I really shouldn't complain.  I  mean, there are all of these things that I've wanted to get done, and I have done them, and people I've met, and experiences that I have gone through that have been beneficial if not good exactly. I think we just get stuck wanting this one situation to be different, and its all we focus on.

heh, I want to live without want. So where do you start, if you cant want to start with?  But imagine, a life without desire?  How much good and bad stems from that feeling alone.  I think I would go buddhist, if I didn't see flaws in the whole idea of religion in general. An I don't think that the goals of buddhism can necessarily be accomplished within the religious framework anyway (I probably just don't know enough about buddhism). I was never able to become a wiccan either.  I think you can do without a label...or I would like to think you could.   But somehow we allways manage to catagorize ourselves, and put ourselves above each other in some way.  Humanity truly is selfish.

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I'm out of PE for the time, just because I don't have the time or mental energy to do anything that I have to do, let alone extra stuff.  
Relationships are making me sick and stressed out, and I only want to curl under my covers, go to sleep, and never have to wake up again. Sadly, doesnt seem to work.  I always seem to have the problem that I am trying to give my all to a relationship/friendship so I can make it work, but it seems like its only me that wants to give the time. I'm the one calling to see how they're doing, if they want to hang out sometime, but usually they don't call me.  And I never know if its a sign that they don't want to hang out together, or if I don't mean as much to them as they do to me.  I think its more the latter, but I had/have this problem with friends, and now I that I met a great guy, I have it with him too, and its like fuck everything, I guess no one really gives a shit about me.  Luckily I know there are some friends I have that do enjoy being with me...but I just wish it wasn't that way with people I meet.  And since guys never seem interested in me, and I met one who seemed to be, and now professes that he still is interested but isn't giving me the signs I would like, well, it just hurts all the more.  Plus he's going back to college in a week, and then it really will be over. *sigh* Life's just not quite working out the way I would like. I'm sure relationship things will look up in the future, I mean, I'm only 17.
I'm still trying to get college stuff together, and I've got most of my stuff into Pratt, I just need slides and stuff for every where else, and I have Risd's preliminary app. in, which means i'm waiting for them to send me more info on slides and stuff.  Gah, I still have essays to write for some schools too.  But I have no motivation anymore...very problematic for working on stuff.  Ap art stuff is frustrating as hell too, because I have to finish a piece a week..I guess I better get used to it though.

ARGGGG!!!!

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Gah, craziest night ever....or so I think, and so I somewhat remember.  
It felt sad though too, among all of that induced happiness.

I have got a live journal now, just like everyone else.
www.livejournal.com/users/wata…
perhaps this will explain my feelings of last night a bit better?  unlikely.

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deviation mix master!
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PE friends (watching me/watching them -this needs updating, sorry!) if i left anyone out, please let me know! I had to redo this:

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yup. word.  that all i have to say.

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deviation mix master!
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friends and comentators (and of course thanks to all those who are watching me!):

PE friends (watching me/watching them -this needs updating, sorry!) if i left anyone out, please let me know! I had to redo this: